I've been told before that I am not vulnerable enough. While I'm not always one to give the opinions of others too much credit, it was worth taking the time to look inward and find the disconnect... I mean I felt like I was wearing my heart on my sleeve, sharing my experiences and making my opinion known. How could I not be perceived as open?

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I learned more about myself when I started to pay attention. I was reporting. I wasn't sharing how things made me feel or the reasons they profoundly impacted me. That was when I discovered my wall. It was easier for me to distance myself from my circumstances if I told them superficially, like a newscaster or journalist. That was how I preserved myself and maintained control.

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I'd like to think I'm on a path to repairing that, and to push myself, I've opted to keep a public journal. Prompted by a series of questions, I hope to expand, amend, and grow into how I use this space. If nothing else, maybe it's my Carrie Bradshaw moment?